In this world of connectivity: what with cell phones, internet, and the 3G Network; I cannot seem to reach my best friend. Sure it is not like it is an emergency, but still, when you are usually in touch with someone 24/7 those moments when you are not in touch seem worse and somehow longer than the ones when you were. I am typically an un-trusting person, but I have come to love my best friend like I have loved no one else before. It is not a romantic love, where I picture the two of us together and inseparable and married one day. More like I picture the two of us being close in a way that only best friends can be, not to be complicated with romantic love. But during those sparse times when I fail to get a hold of them..... it feels like I am dying, or rather, being put into solitaire confinement with no attachments to the world. I feel like I need to sleep until the next time that I am in contact with them. Surely I should not feel this way, I know that she does not do it on purpose, she is with a friend of her's who she has not seen since the year began. I am not jealous, just lonely. If I had someone to love in a romantic way I am sure I would feel some of the same sense of loneliness, but that person who loved me would be able to alleviate most if not all of those feelings with something as simple as a gentle caress. But alas, here I am, without that love, and without my best friend. I will just have to keep it together and keep on, Hell, she has not even been gone a full day... ugh...